~Finding What Once Was~
I decided to change my genre of writing,not forever just for my first book.. Waiting for the storm to pass is my journal to share with you. My goal is to write on paper. I can not write all the aspects of how my life changed and wrap it into one book..
I am still trying to wrap my head around how my life became chapters of a book.. This is what I have been struggling with; how to put these events that completely changed who I once was..Stacie..
I say Stacie because that is how I feel..I can’t find her.. searching for my soul.. the person I once was.. my comfortable me!
For anyone who is interested in my story, let me give you an idea of who I am.. I am the youngest of three girls. We all attended Catholic School even though my parents were not religious in any way they felt the need to send us, which I am grateful for..
My childhood was far from perfect and I still search for answers to the questions that pull at my soul..When I say far from perfect I don’t mean devastating. I was not abused or uncared for. I was never hungry or went without..
I know the heart wrenching life that children experience and would never complain or even try to compare the depths of our souls.. My parents selfish needs and their worse than unhealthy relationship was and still continues to be what ultimately brought me down to my knees..
I need to heal and can’t think of any other way than putting my pen to paper and writing about it..Laying down and just existing cannot be the answer..